I stayed in the town you're supposed to leave when you graduate. I'm still here. Surrounded by college kids, so, so, out of place.
I know it's in my power to leave. Got excuses, but let's be serious, there's nothing real keeping me here.
Most of the people I am comfortable with have been gone for a long time.
I feel so lonely sometimes.
I miss the hardcore talks. What can I do? Trust does take time to build up, or maybe it's just chance that you'll meet anyone you can give your brain to and know it won't get regurgitated up backwards. GET ME. Just, understand... I feel like I'm on the moon desperately sending my radio signals into the expanse of nothingness. Hear. Me. It's this dance when you meet new people, not unlike flirting but how long does it take to get below surface talk. How do I take you there without making you crazy. This is why people do drugs together. Smoke together. I HATE the inanities of small talk... that hasn't changed.
I used to really use getting physical as a way to get behind all the boring I-don't-know-you-yet crap. Easy for me to realize that now that I am celibate by long distance.
Ayya he should be here making everything better.
(I should know. How to make everything better for myself. )
I know it's in my power to leave. Got excuses, but let's be serious, there's nothing real keeping me here.
Most of the people I am comfortable with have been gone for a long time.
I feel so lonely sometimes.
I miss the hardcore talks. What can I do? Trust does take time to build up, or maybe it's just chance that you'll meet anyone you can give your brain to and know it won't get regurgitated up backwards. GET ME. Just, understand... I feel like I'm on the moon desperately sending my radio signals into the expanse of nothingness. Hear. Me. It's this dance when you meet new people, not unlike flirting but how long does it take to get below surface talk. How do I take you there without making you crazy. This is why people do drugs together. Smoke together. I HATE the inanities of small talk... that hasn't changed.
I used to really use getting physical as a way to get behind all the boring I-don't-know-you-yet crap. Easy for me to realize that now that I am celibate by long distance.
Ayya he should be here making everything better.
(I should know. How to make everything better for myself. )
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