It's my birthday tomorrow.

Yippy Skippy.

looking back to last year around this time and everything is different.  Which hopefully means that by my next birthday things will have done a 180 again.

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you ever want to just

set something on fire?

a theater

a house

an entire year

or five

change your name

run away

rip out the IVs

bar the door

scream “fuck the life support”

smash the window

with a bronze statue of a

stethoscope

and

get

the hell

out

?

moving picture shows

screw drowning in an obsession

that isn't even my own

my intermission started

five months ago

and

although you're all fidgeting

in your seats

waiting for the lights to come back on

the curtain has caught fire

and while you're searching for one of those

popcorn-selling ushers

the director is screaming something about

technical difficulties,

I have quietly vacated the premises,

and maybe it's just my exorbitant love of

parenthesis

but

(when the demons accumulate

I get the fuck out of dodge

so

what did you expect)

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 A.  why do I always feel like I need to escape something? and

B.  Why am I always delayed for years and years?

screw you scholarship.  I wouldn't even be in college if it weren't for you.