Adulting

Sometimes I just want to run away away away...   I wish I could make a decision based on my own wishes instead of having to worry about other people.  I've always been responsible for myself.  Why do other people need me to take care of them too?  

I feel so aimless. A long distance relationship is all of the worst parts of being single and none of the fun parts.  I need him here to help me with things to talk me down from these ledges and he's just not.  Seeing him on monday but already thinking about all the time I'll have to spend apart from him when I come back.

I am BAD at drama and I'm not very good at standing by my own decisions and wishes.  When I do it apparently goes very badly.   Because I'm not good at handling the anger of other people.  Thank god for my closest friends who stick by me.

I hate feeling trapped.